A child's mindless rattle

A tooth-less rattle

Thursday, December 15, 2005
7:32 PM

Finally, one source of stress is eliminated - exams are finally over! One paper I felt like I over studied, and it's a good feeling. Haven't felt like that in ages. Strangely, I'm still not eating properly and I've been getting bad gastric pangs every now and then. By the time I pop mentos down, the pain's gone. It happens a few times a day and it's fustrating. sighs.

Things with Pearl are.. (what's the word better than great?) fantastic. She says it feels like we're dating like we used to 6 months ago. The same carefreeness, and everything else. =) I guess alot depends on me. If I start harping on the fact that we have not enough time together, I'm quite sure things will be haywired again. Got to learn to be more optimistic, more appreciative, and of course.. to be contented with what I have.

Been having alot of flashbacks of us these few days. It must be the 'end-of-the-year-so-it's-time-for-reflection' syndrome. Sometimes I get a jolt of pain, sometimes a pang of guilt. Most of the time I end up feeling appreciative and blessed. She must have loved me alot to be able to put everything behind.

I've been trying to remember how I spent last christmas but that period of time is a blank. It always happens to me now. When I'm trying to remember something, I seem to misplace that segment of time. And when I least expect it, a flash back will hit me. I wonder if it's the alcohol and ciggies. Whatever it is, I hope I'll never forget things between Pearl and I.

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The End!